"But I struggle with discipline. I lose focus easily, get bored quickly, and I constantly crave something new. I used to think I couldn’t function without cappuccino—until it lost its flavor. Then I switched to flat white. Then americano. Now I drink matcha every day. And I fear that same restlessness will creep into the bigger areas of my life too..."

"From MJ's reflections"....

I sometimes wonder if any part of me truly belongs to me, or if I’m just a reflection of the people and experiences that shaped me. So much of who I am- both my strengths and weaknesses- feels borrowed, inherited, or carved into me by circumstance.
For one, I dream big. Unreasonably big. I don’t settle, and I can’t pretend to be satisfied with “enough.” It’s the complete opposite of what Uzbek society teaches- especially to women. And while that’s the very thing that’s helped me get this far, it’s also what sometimes pulls me away from reality. I owe that trait to my mom and the post-meal coffee conversations I’ve had with my siblings, where dreams were built out loud and limits didn’t exist.

Also, I have a terrible memory when it comes to events. I forget the good and the bad unless I actively sit down to reflect, like I’m doing now. It’s both a blessing and a curse. I forgive easily. I also forget easily. Nostalgia doesn’t visit me often, but neither do grudges.

to be continued....

Qo’lingdan kelgan hamma narsani qil! “Eh, shuni qilmasaydim” degan narsani qilma! Qolganini qilaver…

P.s. Ayajonimni gapi emas. Ular aytib bergan kishini gapi🙂‍↕️

Sizga savol? Men bu blog kanalimda asosan o'zim o'rganib tushunib yetayotgan narsalarni bo'lishib boryabman va bormoqchiman (tez-tez). Men yozishni yaxshi ko'raman (juda professional bo'lmasam ham). Siz nima ko'rishni xohlaysiz? Blogni o'zbek tilida yurgizish fikriga-chi, unga nima deysiz? 👇

Post ancha kechikdi🥲

Bu Marstiffdagi 😊 @marstiff_uz o'quvchilarning mart oyidagi natijasi! Mart oyidagi imtihonda bo'lgan muammo tufayli ±30% ga yaqin o'quvchilar imtihon topshirolishmadi.

Natijalarga kelsak, hamma o'quvchilar birinchi marta topshirishgan. Ularning orasida 1500+ ham va 1300+ ham bo'ldi. Realistik bo'lib aytaylik, har bir guruhda va har bir o'quv markazda bunaqa holat bo'ladi. Asosiy farq foizlarda! Mana shu o'quv markazni kuchli yoki kuchsiz qiladi. Men natijalar gapirishini xohlayman!

Endi asosiy gapga o'tsam... Nima uchun ba'zi o'quvchilar 1400+, 1500+ olishadi va nima uchun ba'zilar buni qilisholmaydi. Men ko'plab o'quvchilarga sabab beradigan ustoz sifatida buni sababi faqat aql yoki qobiliyatda deb o'ylamayman! Siz-chi?

3 ta sababi bor✅
🔴 O'quvchi o'zini qobiliyatini/darajasini to'g'ri baholay olmaydi va unrealistik maqsad qo'yadi
🔴 Yetarlicha vaqt o'ziga bermaydi, yetarlicha tayyorlanmaydi yoki juda kech boshlaydi
🔴 To'g'ri ustoz va to'g'ri strategiya bilan ishlamaydi. Siz agar yuqoridagi narsalarni to'g'ri qilsangiz-u faqat shunda adashsangiz ham ko'p vaqt yo'qotishingiz mumkin. Yuqori ball olmaysiz demayman, lekin ko'p vaqt yo'qotasiz. Agar self-study qilolaman deb o'ylasangiz, men bergan guidedan foydalaning, ma'lumotlarni filtrlashni o'rganing, va ustoz bilan tayyorlanayotgan o'quvchilardan ko'ra 1-2 oy ko'proq o'zingizga vaqt bering, chunki ularga tayyor berilayotgan to'g'ri ma'lumotni siz filtrlab qidirishingiz kerak. Agar ustoz bilan tayyorlanmoqchi bo'lsangiz, ustozni faqat balliga emas o'quvchilariga va ularni feedbackiga qarang. Kecha 1500+ olib bugun ustozlik qilyabdi degani sizga ham shu ballni olib beradi deganimas! (p.s. hammaga tegishlimas, personal qabul qilmang)

Assalamu Alaikum, guys! Anchadan beri SAT bo'yicha offline dars bermayotgan edim (p.s. faqat offline teacher training ustozlarga o'tayotgan edim)

SAT oldin topshirgan va May imtihoniga kirmoqchi bo'lganlar uchun ertalabki SAT booster offline guruhi tashkillashtiryabman. Darslar haftada 7 marta 2.5-3 soatdan bo'ladi. Hamma qismlarini o'zim o'taman✅ 1500+ ga harakat qilayotganlar uchun eng yaxshi tanlov!

Talablar: SAT EBRW (600+) va math (650+)
Guruhga qo'shilish uchun✅
Darslar 5-apreldan boshlanadi 😊

Andijon bozorlaridan hayotizda bir marta bo’lsayam ta’tib ko’rishiz kerak bo’lgan narsalar😂🫠

📍Eski shahar, Andijon

❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥🥹

Guys, yozib qo’yila mehmonga ketyabmiz. Keyin javob beraman🫠

Juda ko’p SAT haqida va o’rganish haqida savollar berilgan.

@SATwithMJ da fayl qismiga o’tsayiz, 0 dan 1400gacha guide bor 🫣✅

Odamni miyyasi shunaqada. Birinchi hate ga qaraydi😆

Nimayam derdik, men 0dan qurganman hammasini va ko’rsatadigan xizmatimizga javob beraman. Hammaga birdek yoqmasligimiz mumkin, lekin nafaqat men balki Marstiffdagi har bitta ustoz jonini berib ishlashadi🌚

Dushevno gaplashamizmi🫠?

Savollar yozsez bo’ladi -> t.me/anonaskbot?start=ojm07

Gaplashib bo’lib o’chiraman😂

Ramazon hayiti muborak! 🤲

#unrelated

🗣️Tell me you are unbothered by celebrity drama without telling me you are!
Me: I yesterday found out that Hailey Bieber is Justin’s wife, not his sister🤣😭

Guyyyys, vanihoyat😭🥳

SAT bo'yicha 0dan 1400+gacha maksimal oson qilib tuzilgan guide. Guide ingliz tilida. Hamma fayllari ichida. Linklarni tekshirib ko'ring, ishlamasa menga ayting to'g'rilab chiqaman✅

🔗Maksimal share qilamiz. SAT ni endi boshlamoqchi bo'lganlar uchun ham, individual va ustoz bilan tayyorlanayotganlar uchun ham yordam beradi 😊

Guys, 10+ soat ketqizdim🥹 Maksimal foydalaning va natijangizni bo'lishing! Much love from MJ💓

@SATwithMJ / @marstiff_uz

Aytgancha, kanalim shaxsiy blogga aylandi. O’zim uchun kundalik sifatida fikrlarimni yozib ketmoqchiman.

Agar SAT va faoliyatim haqida o’rganmoqchi bo’lsangiz, @SATwithMJ ga ulanib oling. Bugun 0 dan SAT 1400+ ga roadmap tashlayman✅

"Miyyang kichkina seni!" Shu gapni ayajonim 3 yilcha oldin aytgandilar. Eng katta kamsitilishni his qilgandim o'sha paytda. Tushunishingiz uchun, yoshligimdan meni maqtanadigan narsam faqat 'kallam' bo'lgan. Bo'yim normadan past edi, 'semiz' deb ko'p kamsitishgan, sportda ham o'zimga ishonchim bo'lmagan, va yana sinf fondini bermaganligim uchun ham har doim tikka turardim.

Ular nima uchun bunaqa deganlarini miyyam shunchaki qabul qilmadi toki buni tushunib yetmagunimcha. Men juda realist odam bo'lganman. Agar men ishlamasam rizq qayerdan keladi? Imtihonga kechasigacha tayyorlanmasam qanaqa qilib o'zim xohlagan ballni olaman? Agar hozir shu pulimni berib yuborsam keyin qanday yetkazaman? degan savollar har doim meni ta'qib qilardi. Rostanam bu savollarni berib ko'ring o'zizga. Aslida juda mantiqiy savollar, lekin Allohni g'aybi degan tushunchayam bor ekan. Qayerda edi bizni mantiqimiz Muso a.s Allohning amri bilan dengizni ikkiga bo'lganida? Bu yerdayam mantiqimizni ishga solib kuchli shamol yoki tsunami sabab bo'lgan desak bo'ladi, lekin u aynan nega kerakli paytda kerakli joyda sodir bo'lganini tushuntirib berishga mantiqimiz ojizlik qiladi. Postni juda uzun qilmoqchi emasman. Shuning uchun boshqa misollar bermayman.

Menda shu yillarda, ayniqsa shu yilni boshidan beri, o'zgargan narsa bu hamma narsaga ishonish va hamma narsaga ishonmaslik. Bemani eshitildi-ya?! Hamma narsaga ishonmaslik bu qat'iy fikr qilmaslik. Hamma narsa bo'lishi mumkin. Masalan, "falonchi shu gunohni qilibdi endi dindan chiqibdi" degan qat'iy fikrlarim yo'q. Chunki, biz limitimiz yetganicha fikrlaymiz, Allohni marhamati biz bilganimizdanda cheksiz va hukm qilish bizga emas. Ikkinchi qismidagi hamma narsaga ishonaman deganimni sababi agar Alloh xohlasa hattoki qizil qor yog'ishi mumkinligiga ishonishim. Chunki, yana aytganimdaka, biz aqlimiz chegarasi yetgunicha fikrlaymiz va mo'jizalarga ishonamizmi yo'qmi ular bor. Allohni g'aybi bor. Mana nima uchun ayajonim meni miyyamni kichkina deganlar. Buni tushunishimga 3 yil vaqt ketdi. Sizda buni hozir imkoni bor.

O'zimni diniy ilmda kuchli deb bilmayman, shuning uchun ko'p masalalarda eng birinchi o'zim ilmli deb o'ylaydiganlar (xususan, ayajonim) bilan maslahatlashaman, keyin ular aytadigandaka qalbimga quloq solaman (hech bo'lmaganda harakat qilaman)

Duo qilish haqida ozgina gapirmoqchiman. Menimcha sizda ham katta narsalarni duo qilib so'rayotganingizda hayolingizdan bir marta bo'lsa ham o'tgan "o'zi men bu narsaga arziymanmi? juda katta narsa so'rab yubormayabmanmi?" degan fikr. Shu narsa haqida oilaviy suhbat bo'ldi. Alloh bandasini loyiq-loyiqmasligiga qarab duosini qabul qilmaydi! Hattoki, Iblis Allohga duo qilgan va Alloh uni qabul qilgan (7:14-15). Shuning uchun, tasavvuringizga sig'ganicha duo qilishingiz mumkin. Ayajonim har doim shunaqa deydilar(oldinlari ayajonim duo qilayotganida men 'ular matematikani yaxshi bilmaydilar, shuning uchun qanchalik katta sonlar haqida duolarida so'rayotganlariga tushunmaydilar' deb o'ylardim 😂. Oradan vaqt o'tyabdi va men duolar rostdan ham ijobat bo'lishiga ishonyabman). Biz shunchaki samimiy tavba qilishimiz va Alloh bizni duoimizni qabul qilishiga kuchli umid qilishimiz kerak.

Aytgancha, Ramazonning oxirgi 10 kunligiga kirib keldik. Qilayotgan ibodatlaringizdan tashqari, Allohdan qalbiz nimaiki yaxshi narsani istasa so'rang. Bekorga bu postni bugun men yozmadim va siz hozir o'qib turmayabsiz.

Aytgancha, bundan buyog'iga shaxsiy fikrlarimni ko'proq bo'lishaman. Qiziq bo'lmasa, tark etishingiz mumkin.

A little bit of cringe from our fam to yours 😂🤌🏻

Multfilm nomi -> Neja✅

Guys, i am making this channel private 💔

I will be sharing my insights and ideas here. If you are leaving, chances are you will not be able to find this channel anymore. Sooo, take care 🤍

A fun fact -> you start hating the song once you use it as a ringtone😭

Assalamu Alaikum, guys! As promised, i opened a channel solely dedicated for SAT prep. Join quickly if your exam is close 👇

https://t.me/SATwithMJ

I am sending the recording (processing…)✅
I will open a new channel solely dedicated to SAT prep ✅

Tell me how was the class + questions👇

We are starting. Leave your questions below (once u have)👇

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Assalamu Alaikum, Make-up/May/future SAT takers!

Promise is a promise. Tomorrow (Sunday) at 13:30, we are having a voice chat in which I will solve the verbal part of real march SAT test and explain all strategies involved in test-taking FOR FREE! Feel free to join and share with your friends.

Best regards, MJ (1590, 790/800)

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Assalamu alaykum, Make-up March/May/kelajakdagi SAT topshiruvchilari!

Vada berganimdek, ertaga (yakshanba) soat 13:30 da ovozli chat o‘tkazamiz, unda men bepulga mart oyidagi haqiqiy SAT testining ingliz tili qismini yechib, barcha test topshirish strategiyalarini tushuntirib beraman!

Qo‘shilishdan va do‘stlaringiz bilan ulashishdan tortinmang)

Hurmat bilan,
Ma’rifat Jamal (1590, 790/800)

Feeling deeply sorry for everyone who took the SAT yesterday🥲

However, I want to clarify few things:
CB started sending emails as shown above. If you receive the same email, here is what you can do (p.s. in all cases, you'll get full 100% refund and a voucher for future sat exam 🤑)

* if you want to keep your march 8th score, contact with college board via the form at www.sat.org/inquiry by march 20th (you won't be eligible to take part in the make-up exam if your test center offers one)
* if you don't take any action, your score will be cancelled.

p.s. I want you guys to be a bit delulu here and think everything is working out in the best way possible. Let's take this chance to improve. Btw, I am editing yesterday's exam files into a best format. You want a full exam analysis ?)