ты просто пытался восполнить мной свои недостатки.

я все не могу понять себя. зачем цепляюсь за прошлое этой цепкой хваткой.
я не хочу на дно.
я не хочу.

why did I go through so much pain?

my hands were cold every time, my gaze was full of excitement and doubt, and the tone of my voice gave me away, caught me off guard, because that's how I seemed to myself every time we met. hormones were going off the charts, my mind was clouded, but my thoughts were only about you, and I kept waiting, waiting and waiting until I could see you again, feel your embrace, your touch, you yourself, and finally gently touch eyes, feel how you gently look at me and envelop me with your love, receive a smile in response. how nice it was to feel the warmth spreading throughout my entire body, smoothly moving to the most intimate - the heart.

but now there are so many doubts and endless torments in my head that they do not allow me to take a step forward, and my heart beats wildly from the fact that I do not know what will happen to me next. I always wanted to live for you, I wanted to live for us.
but now i feel so alone, and there is as much pain in me as there was once warmth, and i'm afraid that i've lost you, because how could this happen?
maybe i'm too stupid, but if i could go back in time, at that moment when we saw each other, i think i would only cry on your shoulder, hugging you tenderly, i would never let you go, even if you tried to break free.

why don't we have a chance anymore?
why did you ruin everything?

мы — одно целое, но нам не суждено быть вместе.

я стоял, смотрел на себя, разбитого, часами, и понимал что такое любовь.

я стоял, смотрел на себя, разбитого, часами, и понимал что такое любовь.